This sucks and that is ok.

So I am down a bit and thinking that life can suck.  I had already been told in October that I had coronary artery disease. So last Thursday I get the results from the echo. I have a new chronic serious disease called Pulmonary Hypertension. I was lucky it was found before in the severe stage. At first I was upbeat thinking I already have other serious diseases I can handle this. The last 2 days I have been down in my spirit . Thinking Life can suck. Thinking I already made changes to better my life. So I am grieving the loss some of the things in my life that I enjoy. So I will not feel bad when I am not upbeat and be gentle with myself. Yeah life can suck and that is ok.